Sorry, I have to vent....

I ususally try to keep this blog upbeat and positive....however, this post is going to be a bit of a venting session....
It all started yesterday....Livie had a fever all day, I couldn't get it to break. She had really bad stomach cramps and diarrhea, most likely her C-Diff was back. Yuck. She also stopped breathing 3 times already. She just kept crying and crying and her fever kept getting higher and higher. She finally fell asleep for a nap. She was asleep for a little while when I heard these strange noises coming from the bedroom. I went in to check on her.... Her eyes were open, but deviated to the left, her pupils were dialted. She was making weird gurgling noises and could not speak or move.
I kept telling her to look at me, to talk to me. She couldn't. (I am fighting panic at this point.)
I picked her up and held her. She still couldn't talk or move. Her eyes were still stuck and not tracking. I am starting to freak out now.
Thank goodness my phone was close by, I called the pediatrician, they said to get her to an emergency room immediately. Everyone was gone, but I was able to get ahold of my mom (who had just gotten off work.) She rushed over to my house to take us to the nearest hospital: Bingham Memorial hospital. Blackfoot's only hospital. (Definitely not my first choice, but Alyvia is still non responsive, and her coloring is starting to get worse, and I am getting really scared. I can't help but wonder if my little girl just had a stroke.)
Now for those who do not live here, I will tell you, BMH is not a favorite hospital to very many people. In fact, it's the town joke that if you are dying, not to go there because they will kill you off. (Harsh, but pretty true.) I was hesitant taking Livie there, but obviously this was an emergency and she needed help....
We get to the emergency room and Alyvia's eyes or no longer deviated to the left, they are looking straight ahead, but she is still not tracking and she is trying to talk, but the words just are not coming out right.
A man, dressed in regular clothing, takes our info and takes us back to the ER. (I guess he is the nurse) He then tries to weigh Alyvia in a baby scale. I am trying to give him a run down of Livie's medical history since it is quite extensive. Meanwhile, this nurse is having a hard time getting the weight. I tell him that we see the doctor on a regular basis. I know how much Alyvia weighs, does she really have to be weighed right that second? (I am a bit more concerned about whether or not she's had a stroke than how much she weighs.)
Mr. nurse than goes to get a thermometer to check Livie's temp. Oh, and it can only be a rectal temp. They can NOT do it any other way. (Seriously? That is the ONLY way. Does he not understand that she has got explosive C-Diff diarrhea and he should not be wanting to put anything down there!!) I ask him if he has to do it rectally....he HAS to. There is just no other way, and he cannot take my word for it that she's had a fever. He needs to know for himself. (Seriously? Are you kidding me? He can't listen to me, her mother, or feel the poor girl's forehead to see how hot she is?) More importantly, this nurse had not even looked at Livie to assess her. He hasn't tried to talk to her, look at her eyes to see if they're deviated or dilated, checked her breathing....NOTHING!
I am starting to get really concerned at this point, I don't know if Alyvia's had a stroke, if she's okay, and all this nurse wants to do is put a thermometer in her bum.

Whatever, I lay her down so Mr. amazing nurse can get Livie's temp. My mom warns him that Alyvia has a history of stopping breathing, turning blue and passing out. In the past she has needed oxygen to recover. (I am worried because her oxygen is only 80, shouldn't she be getting some oxygen anyways right now?)
Here is the real kicker: The nurse does not get any oxygen for Alyvia, INSTEAD he asked me why we are there.
WHAT!! HELLO! Why do you think I am there?! Then this great nurse proceeds to tell us that if Alyvia stops breathing it will actually be a "good thing." She can "reset her system" and it will actually "help her."
(Apparently he is not understanding all the brain trauma and medical issues Livie has had.)
Well, I picked my jaw up off the ground and told the nurse that I obviously came here to get help for my little girl, and if he could not offer that help, then we could go somewhere else.
And that is exactly what we did.
We left.
My mom is laughing at this absurdness of this whole thing, she could not believe how ridiculous the nurse was. (For a moment she thought we were on "Punk'd" and that Ashton Kutcher would come running out.) It was that messed up!

I am in tears, but at least Alyvia is trying to talk more and tracking with her eyes.
I call Livie's pediatrician and told him what happened. He says that Livie needs to be seen and that he would see her (even though it was after hours.)

Have I mentioned how much we love Alyvia's pediatrician. It's a drive to Pocatello, but it's worth it, he does so well with Alyvia and I trust his opinion.
By the time we got to Pocatello, Alyvia was acting a lot better (finally talking and tracking with her eyes, and sitting up.)
Verdict: Livie did not have a stroke (Phew!) The Pediatrician thinks that Alyvia has the stomach flu, and that because of the high temps she had a seizure while she was sleeping and had a hard time coming out of it. Because her oxygen was doing so well (a record setting 95) she didn't need to be hospitalized. However, if this happens again, Livie will most likely be put in the hospital to be monitored.
I have seen a lot, and as bad as it sounds, I am used to seeing Livie turn blue, stop breathing, even seizing. This episode just really scared me. It brought back all those memories of being in the hospital when Livie was like this and there was nothing we could do.

Because of all the brain trauma, Livie's brain isn't firing exactly right, but I am so thankful it's working as well as it is. I love this little girl more than life itself. (Even when she scares the crap out of me! ;)

I still cannot understand why we got such horrible service from the nurse at BMH. Especially since Alyvia has got such a crazy medical history. It's pretty sad that this nurse would act the way he did.
I do know that I will NEVER be going to BMH again.